Single Mom

I must confess ..... being a single mom is tough..... and being a pregnant single mom is even harder!

With Matt gone all week, I've been playing every roll possible -- mom, dad, chauffeur, owie kisser, bath giver, cook, maid, everything! It's so funny -- (yea, this is going to be totally random) I got 4 emails last week entitled "Your Dream Is Calling". Each was forwarded from a friend of mine, and it originated from Archivers (which is a scrapbook store) and they are looking to add to staff here in town. To each one, I replied.... "Thanks, but don't you know... I'm already working my dream job". And I really am. There's nothing more I love than to wake up every morning to two smiling faces ready to throw their heavy arms around my neck, and spend each and every day watching them grow. With that being said.... a 10 minute break would be nice. I must confess... I'm exhausted. Really. Truly. Tired. Around 5 pm today I was fantasizing about bedtime. Literally. Pretty sad, huh???

Matt left yesterday morning and won't be back until Thursday night. He's in Phoenix on a work conference and when I talked to him earlier today, he was telling me about the gorgeous hotel he was staying in. Amazing rooms, a balcony that overlooked the pool, great pools, lush gardens and weather in the high 80's. Oh, yea.... and all of that was followed by, "You and the kids should really be here. You'd love it. You all will have to come next year". Great! I'll plan on it, but really why didn't we think of that a couple of weeks ago???? UUUUUGH! Evidently, tons of families are there, but no... we're stuck in Iowa!

So, since I've been running around to dance lessons, story time, kindermusik, preschool, gymnastics, the doctor, etc... something has to give. Guess what I've chosen NOT to do - cook and clean!! That's right, the kids and I ate out twice today and cleaning -- I just haven't done it. My house literally looks like a tornado blew through... With Caleb running around it doesn't take long, but man.... it's sad! So in my mess of a house today, I've decided that I need to redecorate. As in... total overhaul. I've decided to start with living room furniture and go from there.... So between now and when the baby is born, I've decided to re-do our house. Our couches are hideous. I can't believe I ever picked them out, and it's time they GO!

So -- tomorrow I'm going to try to clean and do laundry... It's good to have a goal, but just because you aim to do something, doesn't mean that it's necessarily going to happen!

Sorry for the rambling post .... I'm sure it doesn't make a bit of sense. I'm off to bed!